I'm back to where I belong, where it all started, where memories stays and it will stay forever.

To my very 1st blog --> http://www.zerogee-zie.blogspot.com

Relink if u bother to. Thank you so much sugar...~

As I browsed back my blogspot in year 2006 onwards, I want to go EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE can?!

Meluat siak aku bace ape aku tulis.

LOL.. What do you expect, I was madly in love at that time and my world revolves around that only guy.

But seriously, tak perlu eh aku be so mushy over the net.

Matila. Kenape la kau mcm gitu Zie dulu. *hentak kepala pat tembok*.

Kental nyeeeeeeeeeeeeee...

I do sure had a good laugh moment and not to forget puking moment. Tsk.

Well, reading it back, I knew somehow inside me do craves for that life back then where I was all carefree.

How I wish I can meet Iran earlier.

Well Iran read my old blog and he commented that I was all loving with the past to be based on the present of my relationship now with Iran, I didnt post any loving thing for him.

You want to know the reason why? Because confirm confirm if I do that, 4 yrs down the road, I will be reading back my blog and goes 'Eeeeeeeeeeeee gelinye!!'

Oh well, my past really is legend. I wouldnt want to be jotting down my past life here. Only those happened to be the characters knew. How disastrous it was with the family, how life is like a drama..

Its so fast that its finally Thursday.

Okla bye.

It was only the 2nd day of Ramadhan and the Cathay peeps started planning for an iftar session at Geylang.

I never once tag along with their outing. Furthermore, Rini and Ashley decided not to tag along so I was like 'Nevermind, give it a pass'.

Then again, Nurfa suggested I bring Iran along and Rini also messaged that she's going. So ya I brought Iran along.

It was after work that we all meet up at Paya Lebar.

I passed them my camera and my oh my, they click here click there, that most pictures were their faces especially Nurfa. LOL.

They rest decided on Karaoke at Grandlink while Iran and me thought they should just go ahead.

We had some polaroid moments!

Now that adds up to my gallery corner at work.

It just sucks to be sick, running nose and keep on sneezing non stop.

Iran tried to snap an ugly picture of me digging in my nose and feeling irritated with the running nose. Then again, try harder k Syahiran! Ass you!

Till then.

Toodles...~

05th August 2010,

I took leave on Thursday to have a small celebration with Iran. Its his Birthday. Met him at 1230 to catch our 2 movies, Tekken and The Inception. I swear I dont understand anything from Inception but Tekken was good!

We hailed a cab from Cineleisure to Lock Road for dinner.

It was my first time and his so in a way we kinda got lost in there. Its like the 2nd Dempsey Hill.

The atmosphere was so Bali..

Friday (06 August 2010) was preparation day for my family.

Venue was held at my Aunt's place in conjuction with memories of my late grandmother.

We stayed over for the night helping out here and there. Sister Heena (Syika's tenant) were so helpful in cooking for the foods. Briyani, Chappati and all.

Syika, Irna and me chilled over at Teh Tarik after all is done and back home, all snoring so peacefully while me, so nervous thinking bout the next day.

Saturday (07 August 2010),

The day finally came.

I was ironing my kain when I didnt realise that the Iron was hot that it burnt my kain! The one that I need to wear that day. I swear I nearly cried but glad that we managed to cover it up though it was hell a big hole. Well, creativity works furthermore with the contrast green shorts that I wore underneath.

It was made an agreement that the guy's side should come at 1plus. But due to work wise and all so rushing to prepare the stuff and me, in the middle of my make up, mom called them and finally, they gonna come after 3pm.

So I had to wash off my make and my face is really sensitive. I hate the idea to wash it off cause my whole face will itch after that. Decided to waste our time and had lunch at Teh Tarik again with Kak Ain (my make up artist / my cousin in law), Syika and Irna.

Syika and me purchased a last minute contact lenses each.

Back home and wash my face again and start with the make up.

It was finally 3pm when I received a text from Iran informing me that they are on their way. I was all panicked. Haha.. Seriously! and I cant sit still. Nordiah and Ain was all along in the room watching me getting ready.

Walked my way to the living room and forced my friends to sit beside me.

I couldnt explain how happy I was to see my closest friends being there all beside me watching my happy moments. Thank you guys. Salihin was forced to squat beside me cause I was so nervous enough. Well, he did just that! How SWEET!

Anyway, I seriously cant behave myself. At one time I was all nervous and the next thing I knew, I just cant behave.

And this is Kak Ain, the one whose incharge of my make up. I LOVE IT! Luckily I dont have to search far for a make up artist. Closest one is just there.

My soon to be in-laws..

That was it.

Fuh! I'm glad that none didnt even realise the big tore and I think half the day I forgot all bout it that I can happily walk here and there. Like I said, I cant sit still.

To those my closest friends who came, Thank you. So sorry to some that I couldnt entertain much.

That night we made a small cutting cake session for my Auntie Azizah since its her birthday.

So, I'm already engaged??

Sunday (08 August 2010),

Made my way at 11am to Yishun for Yasser's, Iran's brother engagement. Yup! Its his turn. Congratulations to the both Yasser and Aisyah.

Ok thats it! Finally I'm done!

Toodles..

Hell-lllooo Earth!

I'm probably too filled with life. Too lost in my real world that I neglected the blogging world.

Well as some or should I say most since its been in FB, and news been spread, I'm officially engaged to Syahiran Abdul Samad on 07 August 2010.

I've been busy eversince of plans with friends and colleagues and sick these few days, in actual fact, I'm prolly LAZY to update and upload the pics since it took me ages to wait for it to upload I can just doze off.

Also not to forget, the man turned 24, days before our engagement.

My outing with the Cathay peeps to Geylang.

Yes talking bout which, its already Ramadhan.

Another holy month and I've already bumped into Ady at Geylang.

Yes its nearly a week of fasting, I've already gone to Geylang twice.

Some keeps on commenting that I did not invite them to the engagement.

First of all I apologise, it was meant to be a small affair between my family side and theirs and some CLOSE friends.

I have a big family thats include my relatives. Thats the reason why a simple affair became a big one instead.

Thank you to all those who made it happened. Especially to my auntie, Azizah.

I shall not be bothered as to what happened before the engagement. I believe god is fair. Everything has a reason.

Ade hikmah disebalik semuanye.

Sadly, late grandma was not there to witness my happy moments. Al-Fateha.

Just one thing to clarify to those who love to make up stories and putting words in my mouth,

DO NOT ACT AS IF YOU KNOW ME WHEN YOU DONT. DO NOT CREATE STORIES AND ACT ALL SO GOOD AFTER THAT.

Pfft.

See what happens now? There seems to be communications breakdown. Well, I dont feel any impact to lose cause in the first place, we're not even close at all. So why should I bother.? Like I said, I'm not as pretentious as you.

Guilty concious? Thats why you suddenly have the feeling that I do not want to talk to you and hate you when in the first place I have no idea whats going on.

One thing for sure, to look down on others flaws, I reckon you take a good look at yourself first.

Till again, I shall post the pictures in my next entry.

Toodles..

Definition of hypocrites:

1. somebody feigning high principles: somebody who pretends to have admirable principles, beliefs, or feelings but behaves otherwise
2. a person who professes beliefs and opinions that he or she does not hold in order to conceal his or her real feelings or motives
3. someone who leads you to believe something that is not true
4. someone with an assured and ingratiating manner
5. a hypocrite who pretends to religious piety (after the protagonist in a play by Moliere)
6. a person who is inwardly evil but outwardly professes to be virtuous

Very very dangerous.. Beware...

Life has its up and downs. Perhaps now my life has many flaws. I shall accept all hurdles and spit all you want.

I shall remember this and cherish those whose there all along even when your life is breaking.

I learn to fall and get up on my own.

I dont need you, you, or you to make the situation more worst.

Mouths is evil.

Do not create stories. World is round. God is fair. My worst time might be now but yours never know.

When I never talk about you, never ever start a fire.

I've already drew the line. I shall step onto my zone and mind my own business.

If things were to be directly talk to me, things would not get this ugly. Well, you preffered to go the other way round. Your choice.

My mouth are shut. Enjoy the show.

I dont associate myself with hypocrites. Hinting words is not my style.

DIRECT talking is much more appropriate.

Dear Diary,

7 yrs down the road I will be 30!

Dear Diary,

7 yrs ago, I was so young and free and flirtatious, I'm loving life from every angle.

Dear Diary,

7 yrs down the road, I will be a different person, maybe a wife and a mother.

Dear Diary,

Can time just stop now.?

It was as per normal hardworking day for me on Saturday.

Started at 2pm, to work with Rini and both ended at 10pm. Chilled around Cineleisure till we ended up walking from town to Esplanade. Playing my old trademark game and dares. Missing the old times. We sat along together with chips and drinks and we really are no different from Amah2 waiting for Banglas to hitch on them. LOL.

In the middle of our chilling session, we decided to walk to Clarke Quay. Passed Boat Quay and I saw Ady's lorry. Walked ahead to Clarke Quay when decided to Boat Quay again. LOL... Met Ady for awhile. He was celebrating Im's birthday. Saw Shaun walking past and Rini called out his name. Didnt know that he used to work at my part time place. Just that the time when he was working, I'm not so thats the reason we have never meet each other before. He sat and chilled with us.

Didnt expect that we made it thru the night till 6am in the morning. Time past so fast when you're enjoying yourselves.

Till next outing. With the rest..

Its time I should just not brood over the past on 'how I wish I was there' 'How I wish I'm younger' 'How I wish I could have done better'.

SNAP! to reality. I'm bloody 23 and nothing can ever change to that.

I realise, when we were younger nothing was at our mind except for having fun and exams. Set aside family problems other than that mostly, friends are our closest 'siblings'.

As we grew older, our mindset changes, falling in and out of love are parts and parcels of life. Some fell too hard but manage to build a bridge and dragged themselves to move ahead, moving starting back from scratch.

Some.. too over emotional and not letting go of the past and willing to stay and let their hearts be broken more and more.

I know sometimes we tend to love that someone too much, not willing to let go. But at another perspective, think if the significant other really is worth ur life?

I've heard lots of stories. Which at some point I hated the male species too much but I know I can define them all the same. Some people wish their bf is as sweet as her friend's bf. Some wished that her bf is like the ex. But to think of it, we tend to wanting more and more of the good thing that we actually wanting it to be perfect when in the real fact, nobody is perfect. Everyone have their sweet and sour side. Everyone have their own unique way to show their love.

Saddest thing to hear when married couple, significant other changes from a great bf to a disastrous husband. Life is so full of surprises. Some remain happy some just suffer in silence.

I know my evaluation just went overboard. Anyway, lets not lengthen the topic.

As some might already receive my messages and news spread..

Lets just see what is it about..

Pfft.. I think you get the drift..

Toodles..

As again, this low blood migraine thing hit on me for I dunnoe how many times. I just hate it when that happens. I cant sleep peacefully.

It started on Sat after my break at work and I started to feel dizzy. I thought I must have been tired and I know I cant extend any longer when Woon told me to. All I think at that moment was home and sleep.

The moment I reached home, I closed my eyes and my head are spinning heavily I could almost cry. Ran to the toilet and vommited. Back to the room, called Iran and then forced myself to sleep again but still, it became more worst and I ended up vomitting in the room. I swear I hate to be sick.

Sun I was supposed to work but I cant even bring myself up. If I do, I will feel dizzy and end up vomitting again. Iran picked me up to go to the clinic and as I had suspected, LOW BLOOD! What else. Sadly, the doctor said, I will always experienced this dizziness.

I look worst, I felt worst.

Thank you Iran for everything.

I should learned my lesson long long time ago.

I should not eat like one hungry beggar who never eat for like a year every night.

I had a bad bloating stomach yesterday night till this morning.

I couldnt walk.

Not till I shit. Haha. Awesome!!!! Feel like crying.. Haha.. Superbly awesome!

Am eating nothing today since I'm still full due to yesterday's overly amount of food stuffed.

Haiz Zie Zie *shakes head*..

Dear Mother, please avoid cooking my favourite food cause devil will always automatically possess me.